The past couple of weeks have been a bit trivial. I have been questioning the path that was laid in front of me. I came to one conclusion: The future will always be unclear. No matter where you go, or what you do, you will never be able to predict 100% of your future.
About a month ago, I was thinking of changing careers. Or maybe, taking on something that is totally opposite of what I am doing right now. The problem is, I couldn't make a definitive decision. Some may say - let fate take its course. Some may say - that you need to make a decision quick before time runs out.
A couple of weeks ago, a storm started to brew in the office. No, the storm hasn't passed. We are just experiencing its body, waiting for the tail-end to make its presence more visible. All I could feel is indifference. I have even refused to talk about the specifics with my coworkers. I just don't think that it'll make a difference. We are all waiting. Maybe, they feel that they will be more prepared if they talk about it. Some people have already started to give out their contact information in case the 'worst-case scenario' happens. Heck, I've even seen monitors pointing to dice, hotjobs, monster, and the like. As for me, I haven't really done anything yet. I am ready to ride the wave, wherever it may lead me to. But I know that wherever it may lead me -- it will ultimately lead me home.
We may sometimes stumble through life, continuously wondering whether we have lived accomplished lives or if we still have time to accomplish whatever it is we were meant to do. But one thing is for sure, whatever we do affects other people. Take a step back. Inhale. Exhale. Have you been thinking too much about yourself that you have forgotten about the people around you? I know I have. I'm going home. Maybe, you should too.
Rambling Gypsy