After dinner, I found myself staring outside my bedroom window, admiring the Indigo sky. It was dark and hollow as it slowly embraced the warm glow of the ersatz lighting around the empty neighborhood streets.
Cold wind flurried through the window screen and brushed my face. I looked at the blank piece of paper in front of me and began to write.
I wondered about Idris and Emer and remembered that I received a postcard from Emer a few days ago.
On a sidenote, we were watching the last few scenes of Cast Away when another movie came to mind: Bridges of Madison County. (Also remembered a friend who loves this movie - I still owe him the DVD)
I'm wondering which is more painful: knowing that you can't be with that other person or waking up one day and finding out that the love of your life whom you thought was dead is still alive - but you've already 'moved on' and started a family with someone else.
Quotable quotes:
Bridges of Madison County
Francesca: Robert, please. You don't understand, no-one does. When a woman makes the choice to marry, to have children; in one way her life begins but in another way it stops. You build a life of details. You become a mother, a wife and you stop and stay steady so that your children can move. And when they leave they take your life of details with them. And then you're expected move again only you don't remember what moves you because no-one has asked in so long. Not even yourself. You never in your life think that love like this can happen to you.
Cast Away
Chuck Noland: We both had done the math. Kelly added it all up and... knew she had to let me go. I added it up, and knew that I had... lost her. 'cos I was never gonna get off that island. I was gonna die there, totally alone. I was gonna get sick, or get injured or something. The only choice I had, the only thing I could control was when, and how, and where it was going to happen. So... I made a rope and I went up to the summit, to hang myself. I had to test it, you know? Of course. You know me. And the weight of the log, snapped the limb of the tree, so I-I - , I couldn't even kill myself the way I wanted to. I had power over *nothing*. And that's when this feeling came over me like a warm blanket. I knew, somehow, that I had to stay alive. Somehow. I had to keep breathing. Even though there was no reason to hope. And all my logic said that I would never see this place again. So that's what I did. I stayed alive. I kept breathing. And one day my logic was proven all wrong because the tide came in, and gave me a sail. And now, here I am. I'm back. In Memphis, talking to you. I have ice in my glass... And I've lost her all over again. I'm so sad that I don't have Kelly. But I'm so grateful that she was with me on that island. And I know what I have to do now. I gotta keep breathing. Because tomorrow the sun will rise. Who knows what the tide could bring?
Rambling Gypsy
